Storms

Yesterday at 12:00 p.m. I was reminded of a significant storm in our lives almost 1.5 years ago.  Every Saturday the bad weather warning sirens are tested across our city.  Whew, not a Saturday goes by that my heart doesn't  jump and I have to ask myself, are we in danger? or is it Saturday?  Yesterday my mind was bit challenged because I had been sick in bed for 24 hours from Friday 7:15 am until Saturday 8:00 am.  In my mind I thought it was Friday and the weather was stormy because of  tropical storm Fay.  I did have a moment of oh my gosh "let's go to the safe room" panic.

  

I do praise God for his continual healing of our hearts and minds.  I can see such a difference in the physical way our bodies react to the LOUD alarm on our NOAA weather radio which went off ALL night and the Saturday sirens!  Thank you Jesus for working on our hearts.  He casts down all fears!  He is the great healer and I am so thankful he continues to open my eyes to places he is working.

Today we went to Christ Community and heard an awesome missionary, Shane, talk about how he wanted less of himself so that there could be more God in him.  He wanted more of God's love to be able to flow thorough him for these precious orphaned children.  This man has given his life to orphaned children - all around the world.  I really believe I needed to hear just that this morning.  

My heart had been so heavy on the way to church.  I am ready to finish our adoption paperwork, I am really wanting to travel this fall to China. TODAY!  NOW!   But . . .  I have this wonderful new God given awareness that I am totality capable of opening doors or manipulating situations that can look "Godly" but in fact are all about what I want and when I want it.  This is how I create storms in my life!  I know God has given me a heart for the orphans in China.  I know he is calling us to adopt.  I believe he has a grand plan in place, however, in my flesh I want so badly to run ahead of him and finish the details.   He keeps quieting my heart and telling me to enjoy the journey and to wait on Him.  I am just so excited I can hardly wait!  It is the faith that lies in between here and there that is so difficult.  It is the faith I struggle with.  I do know to keep my eyes on him and although it will not make the yearning easier it will allow me to keep in sight the prize which is not the baby or the mission but Him.     

Shine your light and let the whole world see!